Trucking can be like a bad marriage...

I just can't accept a mediocre life...i don't think me or you were put down here for that...

i just don't...

Maybe i'm wrong...but i don't feel we were put down here to be 'medium', average...

i can't accept 'mediocre' standards....it's just not me...

The challenge is how to engineer something better or greater than 'mediocre'??

When two people put their heads together...anything is possible...

Much of life is about 'confidence'...'moral'...and those things come from relationships...

People get ahead in life because they have the 'confidence' to do so...not nessicarily the means...but the confidence...and when you project confidence to those who have the 'means'...it makes all the difference in the world....

like playing pokers...



life is kinda one big poker game...and I'll leave it at that...

(edited by me...wisdom like this...should be carefully distributed..)

Anyways...it was nice chatting with you...at least now you know i'm real...

A real soul with a real personality....

Again...my time on here is short tonight...

For those of you who like good movies...rent 'The Devil' or 'Devil'...it's a very good watch...

Anyhow, I'm outta here...

Nothing in life is ever easy...but the more friends you have, or family support...the easier it will be for you...

Good-night...

 

Hi, I could not pass this moment up without taking a photo...

I was at a custimor...a small home/shop in the country...
And the owner had these two (actually 3) Little Rascals type of dogs...

The little one like totally mimics the larger one...even in how they lay down to rest...it's like a total copy cat of the big dog...

And the big dog tried to shoove it away with it's front leg...thus the title seemed appropriate...'Go away kid, ya bother me'...

Animals have a way of breaking things down to the simplest of forms...
And during times of stress and anxiody can often provide great relief...

Pets don't seem to 'store' stress like we do..they deal with the moment...and the moment only...and what happens 5 minutes from now is of know concern to them...

Boy, I sure wish I had that ability right now...

But I think there's a verse in the New Testiment where 'Jesus' talks about 'Worrying about tomorrow'...and how to much stress can 'wreck you'...both mentally and physically...literally...it can weaken your heart and give you a stroke...



Royal Marshal...who was a 43 year old producer of Neil Bortz...a national talk show host, actually past away a few weeks ago do to a massive heart attack...

The guy was young..43, had a good job, two kids, and by all accounts, very succesful...but stress weakened his heart...and he's now deceased...

43...wow...that's a real eye opener...life is so temporary...

And that's why I value my time so much now...and am so atimate against going back out over the road...spending weeks alone in isolation..denying others your presense...

Denying others those special moments the just come up unexpectedly, never meeting people or souls who could of really changed your life...

I just can't live like that anymore...

If I had a wife or girlfriend I could maybe team, as long as they stayed with me the whole time...but this being alone stuff just doesn't cut it for me anymore...

Every now and then I read about drivers dyeing all alone in their trucks...
What a morbid thought...to die all alone while parked at some grungy truck stop in the back row...where no one discovers your body for days...

(this happens quite often actually)...

Anyways...I started this post off on a positive note, now it seems it's turning morbid...

continued on next post....

 

Hey, we had a good conversation tonight...

It was a good conversation....

And thank you JimDriv3r....thank you for your continued support...

But to the guy I spoke with earlier tonight...

There was a movie...maybe "Lord of the Rings"...I can't remember...

But there was like a swamp of doom and gloom....



And that's kind of what it feels like we're going through right now...but hang in there...hang in there with me....

Cause spirit is stronger than steel...

Hang in there with me, and lets see what happens...

Another thing I must confess...

Even though I'm a 'rebel'...

I do believe in God...and I do believe if your, our, intentions are 'good'...
God will be on our side...

I do believe that's an important element...

Even though bias man 'hates on me'...and you...I believe a just fair god can see things and evaluate things, in ways man just can't...

Most people are just to full of bias to be able to do such...

I'm a wicked sinner with many faults and weaknesses...but I do believe God still loves me...and you...us...and will help us achieve our dreams...as long as their 'honorable'...

I'm glad I met you...I'm glad you responded to me...

And whether I succeed or fail...I will look after you like a 'brother'...

Well before I go...(cause I'm at a stupid McDonalds)...let's enjoy some of our favorite film scenes together...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pDuhuL6zVsM

Stay true to who you are...when cornered...do what you have to do....

I love you guy...and anyone else who sticks by me...and or God....

As long as God allows me to breath...things will get better for us...

Love ya...

 

xlsdraw...hi....

You are kind of a mystery to me....

But for some reason, whenever I read your name...or think of it...

This image comes to my mind...



I think of one of those fast old fashioned wild west frontier cowboys...who were good at the 'quick draw'....

I may have it totally wrong...but your name just conjures that image up in my mind...



I've never really dedicated a post to you...but like a few others...you seem to always be there...like a calvary in waiting...

Life is odd....

Certain things I can't explain...but can 'detect'...but don't know why...

I do know spirit trancends the flesh...

And I'll leave it at that for now...



Anyways...on other fronts...like the employment front...

It's been tricky...very tricky...every man, woman, knows what they want...the key is getting it.

I walked away from a decent paying job...because I knew what I wanted...and my spirit was dying in the previous situation...

I took a bold chance...in a time and age where jobs are tough to come by, where employers are exceedingly picky about who they will hire...I took a chance...

Cause like I said in the last post...in the end I do believe spirit is stronger than steal...and so are 'honorable intentions'...

My intentions have always been 'honorable'...
To simply work a job or scheduale that allows me personal time off where I can formulate or put together other things or interests in my life...

In other words 'balance'...
Everything in nature seeks a balance...gravitational balance.
And we as humans seek, need that, in our personal lives...without it, what you get is conflict, friction.

(how can I condensce this to a small post entry)...

Maybe 2-4 pages back...I leaped out a plane...not knowing if the parachute would open or not...not knowing if I would hit the ground hard, or float down...

But I leaped anyhow...due to my nature...



Well, that parachute did open...but barely...and at the last minute...

Like those old WWII movies where those parachutest hit the ground hard...sometimes so hard that they suffered injuries...

Once on the ground, their in enemy territory...hostile territory...
And as such takes all their energy and courage to stand again...and trek their way out....

And that's kind of where I'm at now...

At times it's scary, even humiliating...and you learn a lot about yourself and others...

But on a better note...I may actually get what I want...
I so impressed an entity that I was working for, that they may actually give me what I want...

Infact, they practically told me that's what they do anyhow...

4 days a week, and you still get over time...

Now before I close or end this post...

This is exactly what I mean....

I wanted something...and it looks like I may actually get it...not sure yet...but it's heading that way...

Is life coincedence or fate??

Is just having honorable intentions enough to get what you want??

And or is there a higher being, who watches and directs things??

And or how many chances does he, it, give us, to get it right??

Questions each person has to ask of themselves and on their own.

That's why I take nothing for granted anymore...or people who see value in my thoughts...

I want to go deeper than what my current mind set or vocabulary is able to allow me...so I'll just end it here...

There is a lot of parady to life though...a lot of whys?

Something is coming our way though...

I just don't know if it will be coincedence or fate...

Ok, let me stop before I get commited to the nut house...

 

I only wish you well guy...

I'm at a McDonalds again...don't laugh....

Someone with my sophisticated thoughts is reduced to using McDonalds wifi...(ok...go ahead and laugh...cause I am)

It humbles you...and humility helps keep you real...

You and a few others, have really stuck by me...and I appreciate that...

And in the end, it will pay off...one way or the other...

People who are drawn to me are 'real'...

Are clean....

Are 'free'...of many....sorry...I'll have to explain later...due to limited time...

I'm on battery power...

Good things are headed your way pal....

Like I said in last post...life is odd...

Later...

Goodnight all...

Keep your head up U4EA...

 

Ok, I rushed back up here to the McDonalds...they close in minutes...

So this will be sloppy...

But U4EA...you said a key word...

'our'...

which implies 'we'...a term many aren't use to using...

We...as in family...as in club, unit...

That's what we are...

Embrace that...and from that, mighty things can, will occur...

I wish I had more time to elaborate...(oh I can't wait to get my own service turned on again so I can write whenever I feel like it instead of only when businesses allow...)...

We are family...admit and embrace that...don't be afraid to...

A lot of power comes from that...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZROB2pawLBo

Sorry...I've got like 9 minutes before they boot me out of here...this is so so incomplete...

I'll be back soon...

This is so frustrating not being able to express what I need to express...

Please feel it for me...feel it...

And remember...spirit is stronger than steel....

Remember that...live by that...and you'll be suprised...

Gotta go...love ya...Ronald Mc Donalds the clown is all up on me...

 

Hi, I worked today...oh what a day...

I had to calls actually...but went with the 4 day a week prospect job...
It's closer to where I live...and I'm somewhat getting the hang of 'their way'...and the manager guy likes me...

But sometimes when people like you, they work you like a horse...
They ride you like a horse......and your suppose to feel or be honored...

My spirit is, but my body isn't...

I'm not 19 anymore...I don't have that rigorious, willing to do anything, never seem to get sick or injured and always have good luck type of energy or Aura anymore...

And that's why I will only allow my self to work any type of labour job 4 days a week....labour/driving...

Unless it's like driving a bus or something or van...

The steel and or wood and or objects I handle have a much longer life expetancy than me...

I, me, my body will wear out for sooner and quicker than the inatimate objects I handle....


Anyways...I'm wore out...and I left my phone at a store...

So now...no phone...I can't recieve calls or make them...
And no internet...not at the home anyways...

That spells boredomn...and boredomn can often spell mischief...and mischief can sometimes spell disaster or embarracement the following day...

And yes...I'm at the McDonalds again...



I just can't get away from this guy now...or clown...it's possesed or something...

Even though I use their wifi...I really won't eat their food...(sorry Ronald)...

But I have choices now...it's not like I'm driving over the road where I only have minutes to grab a meal while truck is parked at fuel isle...

I have choices now Ronald...
But those choices sure don't seem to stop others from patrionizing your place....

I do like your orange juice thought...and chicken nuggets...but that's like kid food...adults really got no reason eating that stuff...

Ronald the clown wants to take me out now cause I'm always here....

Anyhow...I'll check back in tomorrow...I'll have much more time...

Right now I'm ragged and rugged tired and worn....

You cannot labour your way to riches, you can only bide your time with an income until your able to create other opportunity down the road...

Be safe tonight, I'll chime in again tomorrow...

Oh I wish I had my phone so I could call such and such...

It's a Friday night...oh the fun and energy we could create on the phone...

Oh well...instead I'll be home alone watching re-runs of old horror movies...

fun fun fun...later...