Trucking can be like a bad marriage...

the countdown begins...

How will this church save face if indeed nothing happens??

I've loosley followed it on Coast to Coast radio...

They've even pulled out and ran expensive commercials or promos to mark the date...

Definatly a pop corn night...

 

Ye, they announced this 'doom' date several months ago...

I just never thought it would still have enough 'traction' to somehow stand out from all the other doom date announcements...but somehow...this church is well funded, and was able to keep their message in the forefront...

I guess the Myan calender event is next, if nothing happens on Saturday night...

 

U4EA...

I just don't know...why should I care anymore about anything...what people think ect ect...

As long as I'm polite and nice...why should I care how others react...

A person, someone related to me, close...............

And they never let fear stop them...even though they faced vastly different challenges...

And you wonder why I'm a rebel...but a good one...a proper one...

A rebel against stupidity...

A rebel against small minds...A rebel against ingorance...

there's so many people I could, should, reach out to, that aren't on here...

Maybe I'll try it, and if I don't like it I can always quit....

No one in this whole world understands me...well a few maybe...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=abG2M3xi0dE&feature=related

 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x-ifr4csoOY&feature=related

This song is dedicated to my father...my dad...the one and only...live on...and live strong...

Screw everyone else...

Except those who have supported me...U4EA...and a few others...

A rebel like you...just in a different way...

Live long and strong...

 

Goodnight all...



How many more nights do we get??

No one knows...just because your a trucker doesn't mean your eternal....

I believe in Jesus the resurected savior...whether you like it or not...

Anyways...it's late...my head is spinning...

And it's time for bed....

Live long and strong...and be nice...later...

 

Ok, back to my bedroom...this thread is like my bedroom, my refuge...in a dark wet world...



Yes, the world is a dark place...and you have to find shelter, solice, where you can...

And this here, is my little room...sort of...or one of them...where i can hide...and kind of be myself...

I come here to relax and settle my mind...

As I warm up by the fire...



Have a seat...and relax...there is no judgement here...only honesty...

Not everything that is said or written is 'correct'...but it's never like that in real life, not in your own house hold amongst those you love, or in the larger enviornment abroad...

I should probablly be on some goth thread, instead of here...but they have their issues too...

Everyones so territorial...and all groups look so 'innocent' from the outside...

I really do wish I could just live in a house, a room, for the rest of my life, and just create things, just write, just help others...

employment and working can be so over rated at times...expecially if your not doing what you love, or have a passion for...

It seems most jobs today are just a template for poverty...working poverty...

That's why it's so important to find refuge in your own mind...the imagination...in dreams...

It's so still and quite now...and I just wish it could stay that way...the forward movement of time seems to just bring destruction and conflict...



It kind of reminds me of that one episode of the twilight zone...where that one guy gets ahold of a stop watch that can 'stop time'...but then he breaks it, and is miserable...

Me...I would be happy...I could literally go the rest of my life without time, or others...I would be perfectly content...as long as there was food to eat, movies to watch, cars to drive...I could keep myself entertained...

'Fred...is that you Fred'...(in reference to Will Smith in the movie 'I am Legend')...

 

Gotta get up early tomorrow...



Sometimes you just want to be left alone...but you got to do what you got to do...

It's no fun working, when your still always poor...

It's just like your going through the motions...and have to find your own reasons for enjoyment, other than pay...

That's why it's best to do things, get things accomplished, while your young and hungry...and uncorrupted by the hardships of life...

That's why I'm always amazed how older polititions have so much 'gong-ho' left in them...

And maybe living a 'admin' life saves you for later years...cause all you do is shuffle ideas and paper...

But regardless...you get to a point in your life where you just want to be left alone...and allowed to just 'live' without worrying about jobs, employment, bills ect ect...

After a while it all becomes meaningless...pointless...and you start counting your days till you die...



You start realizing 'what is man'...

And man starts seeming 'small'...next to eternity...

And at times the words of the book, ring out with more clarity than ever...

Who knows...one day at a time right...

But at least we can be friends while here...no need for hostilities...

No need to get caught up in other peoples ratings driven hoopla...

Anyways...got some business to attend to...

Later...

 

Wow...never sneak up on this guy...



Anyways...that's not what I wanted to write about...I'm wore out...

Been up since 4:30 am...

Driving really takes a lot of concentration...I think that's what drains you..the level of concentration...constant...

I mean look how many gb computer video takes up...lot's of information being processed every second...

I'm to wore out to even talk about the day...

I just want to sit, for a week, in a forest...somewhere in Oregon...

I just need to 'reset'...get away from everything 'man'...

A cleansing of sorts...
I feel it coming soon...

Tomorrow I gotta get up and leave again...but for family stuff...

So much shuffling...and again, it all seems meaningless to me at times...

It all comes down to money and stuff...
That's the world man has built...all paper work, all relationships, insurance, conflicts, love...it all comes down to money and stuff...so much time and energy spent on shuffling money and stuff...

Just give me a tent, a river with fish, and fire...what a novel idea...