Trucking can be like a bad marriage...

Whatever your going through, it'll be ok...if it's your pain, it's mine...

 

Hello...I've been very pre-occupied lately...thoughts have been elsewhere...

I even joined Facebook for a quick minute...but have since deleted account...

I just don't trust that kind of exposer...not for me...not for my unpredictable behavior...all it would take is one night where I had one to many...and well...

I really don't need to be popular or famous anymore...I see how mean people are to each other...and the more popular you are, the more of a target you become...

I guess if your parents are dead and gone, and your independently wealthy, it doesn't matter...but as long as your 'accountable'..it kinda does matter...

Back to Vegas...sometimes I just want to head out there...
Even if it meant living in a homeless shelter for a while, while working, until enough is saved up to get own place...

Being a driver...jobs aren't hard to find...as long as you transfer all endorcements...including P...

I tell ya what...you wouldn't be in a shelter long...with a cdl...

Then you could do the roomate thing or boarding room thing, as you moved your way up...

Just dreaming people...don't worry...

 

Home sweet home...



It does feel good to be back...

Wish I could just stay put...but in mans world, the way man has engineered our existance...you have to continue to plan and plot for your future...

And usually your future involves how to pay this, how to pay that...

That's mans matrix...



It's a money matrix we're all caught up in...

When you think about it..computors already run the world, economic models based on computer reasoning, is the yoke we're all under...

Everything comes back to math, even economics...

Life itself, is based on math.



Understand math, and you can understand anything, even human behavior, to an extent...

On a whole other tip...seems when you want to plan stuff for your own personal growth...other things crowd out your own desires...

Then you end up just feeling like a janitor...a utility man or woman...

Here's a perfect example...if I can find it...



This will have to do...

An old fashioned tractor pull...the more you turn it up, the more weight is put on you..
Till in the end, force and pressure cancel each other out, and the tractor stalls...

And the same thing applies towards some peoples lives...when you double up in effort to get ahead or do things to better yourself, it's as if other forces, out of nowhere, come in and counter that...

So that soon, all your doing is exerting hyperthetical effort, but your actually not getting nowhere...

The only way to get anywhere is to 'cut the weight'...



Cut the strings that attach the weight to you...the weight that is dragging you down, holding you back, wearing you out, both physically and emotionally...

You have to cut the weight...the weight could even be ones own bad habits...
Or it could be burdens others put on you...everyone has their own weights, holding them down or back...emotionally or physically and or both...

continued on next post...

 

Thnks...

I feel so spread out lately...





So so spread out...mentally and geographically...

Something as simple as a 130 mile drive, seems so dry, dull and mundane now...

When I was younger...I use to love to drive...I felt so 'cool'...driving...

Now when I drive, I just find myself looking at the gas gauge and asking..

'How much longer till I get there, hope car or vehicle doesn't break down'..



Anyways...hope all is ok up there...we caught the southern most tail end of a string of storms moving N-Easternly...

Parts of Joplin, MIS looked as if it had been hit by a hydrogen bomb...

We send small cruise missles into other nations, and mother natures sends tornadoes and does 40 times more damage for free, to us, than million dollar missles do to Kadafi in Libya...

later..

 

The twilightzone is a neat tv show....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-b5aW08ivHU

 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cfR7qxtgCgY

I think it has played in syndication continually since the original episodes
aired in the late 60's...

 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bNg-xClEnqM&NR=1

But only the lord can satisfy our desires, and make us whole...

 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0FFrCZNNCeU

Girls are nothen but trouble...

A fun song, by Will Smith...back in his day...



Nice car...I wonder if Will has one of these...

 

An apple a day, will keep colds and the flu at bay...