Trucking can be like a bad marriage...

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I try to write the way Jimmi hendrix played the guitar...

I've done so ever since the 8th grade, going up into my friends attic, and finding a old note book...and every since then, it's been on, in one way, style or fashion, writing that is...

Words are like musical notes to me...like playing the piano..



It helps me to relax by always being honest with myself...it keeps me from becoming hard and edgy by constantly taking the garbage out...

And it helps me to evaluate my own self from a third person perspective..

Some times , however, I do and can go over board...in which case I go back and delete my posts, when possible...

Some things don't need to be revealed, especially if done so in a format that won't help anyone...

Anyways...just got in, wore out...flat wore out...hardly got any sleep last night..

And as far as writing for commercial purposes, like a book or ebook or commercial blog...well ya just never know...time will tell...

Now it's nap time...yes nap time...or meditation time, where ya just lay back and let your body recover from the work day...

Thanks for dropping in...lots more to come...here and elsewhere...

 

I've been doing a lot of research (ok, light research) into the whole realm of registering your own domain name, hosting sites ect ect...

Registry info, protected, not protected...

But to me, it's all a waste of time and info, if one has nothing compelling to write about...

Who cares about recipys?? and the blogisphere is way to over saturated with poetry...and other such meaningless pap...

It's like they all need lessons in what and how to write, if they, bloggers, want to compel readers to go there...

It's like having a large electric guitar...



But not knowing how to play it...

And that's what a lot of those web hosting, register your own domain sites are like...

They give people all these personalized features, this and that, but still at the end of the day, 95% of them have nothing compelling to say or write about...

Where as I do...believe me you I do...
Especially if given the kind of freedom my own .org or .com or .net blog or web page could, would give me...

But again, that's both good and can be bad...

For one, the larger you become, the more of a target you become...the more your voice is heard, the more curious people get...

But again, I see it like this...(as candi put it above)...why put yourself all out there like that for free?

Just having loud, boustrious opinions does what for whom?

It exposes you to harassment, cyber bullying, spammers, but other than that, what is the personal gain to the author?

That's why I think ebooks, is the way to go, I mean if you have something compelling to write about, why not get paid for it?

If one has interesting photos to show of self, or other random items, why not get paid for it?

Otherwise your just giving away all your intellectual property for free...and the site your own gains, but you don't get a thing for it...



If you want to be successful at blogging, your blog really has to have a theme to it, other than 'self'...

Blogs about 'self' work, only if you really know how to make 'self' interesting...

Most people live boreing dull lives...and therefore have nothing really to write about...

No pain, no gain...no pain, nothing to write about..accept boreing dull poetry that no one wants to read...and your boyfriend/girlfriend is forced to...

Matt Drudge, became succesful, cause his blog was 'news' orientated...



He capitolized on peoples need to 'want to know'...the whole 'National Enquirer' template...and it worked, thanks to the whole Bill Clinton sex scandal...

A succesful blog has to bring something to readers that they just can't normally get on their own...

No one wants to hear about how to plant rose bushes in the back yard...but people do want to hear about how your pet cat, almost died, fighting off a raccoon in your rose bush garden...

See the difference?

If you can suck in enough viewers with your blog, than your blog can also serve as a platform to advertise or promote other items, like your own business, or other 3rd party advertisers...who will pay you more, the more hits you get...

Like right now, me typing all this, it's all free, I get nothing for it...
I just do it out of passion...and love for writing...

But all that said...it still comes down to ebooks to me...

Kind of like the old WWF smackdowns...
M-F you got regular wrestling...but if you wanted the really good stuff, you had to pay extra for the smackdown on pay-per-view...

Same with ebooks, vs just blogging...when you blog, your just giving away intellectual property for free...

I can do either...cause writing is not an option with me, it's a calling...so it will come out regardless...

My audience is very limited on this site...very much so...
And I've accepted that...kind of like stepping into a closet, instead of going out into the main hall...

But in a way it has provided me with relaxation...

continued later...(it never stops folks...)

 

Off to work...usually from 6:30 am till around 2-3 pm...



Although it's not a dream job, I've dreamed of this schedual for years...

A steady m-f type job, totally off on weekends...
I'm slowly getting the hang of it...

I told everyone long ago it would be a long process of adjusting...not just to the schedual, but personal habits as well...

I've learned you can't party hard everynight, and then expect to wake up feeling good about work...

But when I worked those awkward, sporadic type scheduals, sometimes you fall into those habits...cause you work for 2-3 days, than your off, not sure when you'll work again and so forth...

You definatly have to be more responsible with your time when doing the m-f 8-5 thing...
And you have to eat right also...replinish nutrients...

I'm still learning...but I woke up feeling refreshed this morning, cause I ate right last night, and got plenty of rest, that's why I'm writing...

Cause I've got energy and it's only 5:48 am...

Anyways, it's off to work I go...

I always have camera in tow, cause you just never know when you'll get that one shot...
I take at least 3 photos a day of just interesting items, people, scenes...
I'll up load some soon...

See ya after work...

 

I found out today that if you talk with or become friends with someone who is gay, acts gay, or plays around like they could be, that you will auto-matically become gay yourself...

It's a study that came out today...in the study it was revealed that

'For males in particular, who talk with, hang around, or associate with other males who 'might be gay' 'who look gay' who talk, sound or write gay'...you are at higher risk of becoming gay yourself'

It was discovered that all males carry around dormant 'gay genes'...these genes stay dormant in most males...that is until they're around, or become friends with a 'gay' male, then these genes suddenly come to life...and the non gay male suddenly finds himself drawn to others like him...

According to this study, the only way not to become gay, is to never associate with any male who you yourself may consider to be gay, to include crossdressers, actors who play a variety of roles like in the movie 'Tootsie'...

The only way to not become gay, is to only associate with 100% hetro guys...as long as you think they're hetro, cause they 'act like it'...than your safe, according to the study...

Follow this rule, like many on here do, and you are 100% sure of never becoming gay...

And remember, even if you write a letter to a gay person or sissy or any one other than a John Wayne type...you yourself will probably become gay.

(there is no grain of salt, this is how many on here think and reason)

 

Question: If a guy only likes other guys who have 100% hetro traits about them...than isn't that in and of itself 'gay'?

I mean what's the difference between a hetro male prefering other hetro males, and or gay male prefering or liking other males?

Answer: No, not quite...When a hetro male enjoys the company of other hetro males, it's for other reasons other than xes and romance...

I don't get it...I mean most gay males act and behave totally 'straight'...you cannot identify 90% or more of gay males by sight, voice or any other way...They basically mirror they're hetrosexual counterparts down to the T, down to the last detail...

So it seems both hetro males, and the majority of closet gay males, both have the same taste in men...they like them 'straight'....straight looking and acting that is...

Look boy, your missing the point and trying to twist things...
Hetro males turn to women for their romance, physical affection, and to pro create, where as gay males turn to each other or find it from other male figures...

Romance is basically 'lust' right...in other words, guys 'romance' women as a long round about way into the bedroom, once there they pro create, have kids, once kids are grown, romance/lust no longer there, they break up or get divorced...now both are single again...

It's as if man is led around by chemical inclinations, the same way an ox is... am I right or wrong?

What is your point boy...

That man is basically an animal...and even the love/lust he has for a woman or wife or partner, is chemically driven, the same way it is in Swans who mate for life, or Beavers...
So mans behavior is basically controlled by pre determined levels of chemicals in his body, and when certain chemical production is off, or accelorated or even altered, then what?

What are you talking about?
Men have religion, animals do not...Men subject themselves to God, animals do not...men have morals, animals do not...and there is a judgement that awaits man, animals have no such judgement...you had better get your act together boy, or else...

To be continued...

 

Think I'll call it an early night...wasted a lot of time shifting through internet garbage tonight...

tons of useless information...that leads you to a fee...everythings about a fee now days..

Computers technology has simply accelerated the madness of man...

It's like man tries to mimic God in every way...

There was a time when it was claimed that only God knew your thoughts, heart and motives...

Now google thinks it does too...

Sometimes it all seems pointless...

I walked into a Public supermarket this evening...and this one guy who loves to evangalize to me kept telling me 'to pray'...but he didn't say about what...

He kept saying 'prayer' is the answer, that 'God' knows us, me, our, my needs...



I mean what does this guy want from me?
I believe in God too, but he always speaks to me like I'm religiously 'dense'...

He always approaches me in public, in front of other people, and goes bizerk....

And they work there!!

Just not sure what they want...

He said 'Next time I see you, I want to hear what good thing god has done in your life'...

This man is getting me caught up in his own personal religious issues...

I mean what do they want from me...and why must they always preach, whenever we have an encounter...

If they want to help me so bad, why don't they write me a check for $20,000 dollas, instead of always putting it off on 'God'?

Religiously Lazy people always defer everything to 'god'...but they themselves never do anything to help you...it's always what god can do for you, 'If you just believe'...

The whole God eqation, just doesn't make sense to me at times...

At times, it just doesn't seem like God cares about all human beings equally...

When I drive around, I see adult males roaming the streets, with no foreseable meaningful future...burnt out lives...men who have long since been discarded by society...born into conditions which make such outcomes more likely...

It's no fault of their own...

For who, before their born, is asked by God...

'What color or country or family do you want to be born into? As God, I will allow you to choose'...

I don't ever remember being asked that question...
It's like a body is simply formed inside the womb, and somehow a soul is attached to it...from where that soul comes from who knows...

Is it randomn? Or does God predetermine what souls go into what bodies, and if so, based on what criteria?
How can you be innocent or guilty of anything if you have never been alive?

Continued on next post...

 

I can't wait for this day...

"Oh god, you should let me into heaven, cause I'm 'clean'...I'm not like the rest, especially that one"

" The Pharisee stood up and prayed about himself: I thank you that I am not like other men--robbers, evil doers, adulterers-- or even like this tax collector...."

Luke 18:11

Amazing how the spirit of the Pharisees is alive and well in others these days, regardless of generations...that spirit gets passed down...

Yes, be glad and lucky your not like me, be glad your 'clean'...and that when Jesus shed his blood, it wasn't for you...rather for people like me, who can admit their flawed, unrighteous, and unclean, and therefore not in a position to condemn others...

But your different...your clean, and totally righteous...and can stand before god, one day, without a mediator...cause all your ways are 'right'...

Jesus, the lord only shed his blood for a few...but everyone else is fine, dandy, and ok...and have been given a license to judge, evaluate, and condemn others...

God loves you, yes you, more than anyone else on the planet, and everyone else is just second fiddle...only you matter to god...and you can totally trust your feeling, cause you, unlike others, were not born in sin, you did not inherit a sinful nature...the generational sin thing just skipped over you...you so lucky...anyways goodnight...