I feel lower than snake crap right now.

Don’t beat yourself up. You’re already taking steps to improve yourself.

Though the job market is tough now - have you ever considered LTL like ODFL , Fed Ex etc?

 

I either wouldn't have reported it or would have called dispatch and said; "That trailer you sent me to get has some kind of problem with the axle so I don't think it's safe to pull."

 

The drivers that take the job most seriously feel the worst when something happens. You know if you did or did not cause the damage. You should not feel more shame or tragedy than you created. Just move on. You can't control random events or the actions of others. Your value does not reside in this one event. Things will get better.

 

It doesn’t matter now. Just keep moving forward.

 

In trucking, honesty is not always the best policy. I've seen several drivers career get derailed or downgraded because they temporarily put a halo on their head and then talked too much.

 

Well - the message is usually in old Westerns - you gotta sleep straight at night, and right or wrong, tell the truth.

@Wrongway21 - I felt the same leaving ODFL after 7 years of service. They couldn’t give a rats rear end when we left - I believe there were many there that hoped we would fail. Just because they couldn’t make the decisions we did.

When you believe you have more to give and offer than what you are rewarded for at a job - it’s time to gear up and move on.

F ‘em. Steer your own ship.