Trucking can be like a bad marriage...

Me personally...i prefer the larger roomier womens wallets...or mini purses...
With as many cards that I have and other 'stuff'...I out grew small tiny male wallets years ago...



Just couldn't do it no more...and no it wasn't a gender issue thing...
It was a practical issue thing with me...the stuff I had just did not fit into these tiny small male wallets...

So I went to Wal-Mart and purchased two large female wallets...with plenty of credit card slots, and all kinds of other slots and pockets for whatever...

I never could understand why they always made or make, male wallets so so small...

And why males are shunned upon who might want to use a purse...
Purses are very convient...and I may get one soon...a nice shiney one...



To me you can do so much more with these things...put so much more in them...so many pockets, so many slots...
And to me it's ridiculious that some how only women can or should enjoy the convience of such a product...

It'll probably take someone like me, to break down some walls...so that guys can feel comfortable carrying such items...

It's just a thing of practicality with me...and has nothing to do with 'gender' orientation...

Purses use to be bi gender anyways...but like everything else...it seems they've become 'feminized' by the modern fashion era...

 

Dang it...that's a paramilitary utility belt...cops use it...both in the military and civilian...
That would definatly be to excessive for me...or aggressive i should say...

Nope...i just prefer your run of the mill back pack or sissy bag...

 

Wow...stop it...




I use to dream of being apart of a biker gang...
I can't tell you what else I use to dream about...

Anyways...
Just for clarification...In real life I'm not as 'soft' appearing as I appear in some of me photos...

I just enjoy the outlet photo editing allows me...
for some reason...I need to see that side of myself...to proove something...to validate something...

But I need balance...so since I'm single...I think I find that balance from within...

If I had a girlfriend...I'd probably loose the urge to express that side of myself...but since I don't have a girlfriend...I need the balance...

Since I can't look at a ladies soft feet...I make mine soft...
Since i can't look upon or feel a ladies soft legs, I make mine soft...

Since I have no lady of grace in my life...I have become grace...

http://underworldrealities.webs.com/apps/photos/photo?photoid=137593900

(slight bobble head effect)....(I went and did all that just to place it here in this spot...boy...the things I do for you all...(smile)...

 

Time for bed here soon...time really fly's by quick these days...it's like days take minutes now...not hours, but minutes...

The future means little to me now...I love 'now'...and wish 'now' could last for eternity....

I have absolutly no need for 3 minutes from now...or 1 hour from now...

The future only seems to bring destruction on all levels...destruction and disruption...

Think how many people are sleeping now, that when they awaken tomorrow and drive to work, they'll get in a wreck...some won't even make it...

For many, nation wide, their commute to work tomorrow will be their last...(just odds)....

So what good did the future do them? What good did 'tomorrow' do them?

I have felt this way for at least 6 years or more...more like 7-8....

I see time, clocks, as monsters...



tick tock tick tock to what? Towards what?

Long ago, when i was very in to church going...my faith in 'the lord'...eased my concerns over time...that and just being younger...

But now time annoyes me...troubles me...and only seems to bring friction...

And I suppose it all depends on what path your own...if everything in your life has gone right...

Perfect grades, perfect job, perfect family, perfect health, perfect looks, perfect social life, perfect career, perfect income...perfect house and property...perfect car perfect marriage...ect ect...

If one feels they're where there suppose to be in life...than time isn't so burdensome...


On a different tip...it's so easy to get mugged at night...
As I left a Subway shop tonight...two younger males were practically up on me, or walking by as I entered vehicle...

It was dark...and so were they...(no pun intended)...but I did not see them until I heard them...luckely there intentions were on food, and not me...
But had they been running up on me, I would never have noticed until it was to late...

Anyways...this is probably it for the evening...at least here...

 

I need a Red Bull or something...I'm just not feeling today...



Man and his industry...his mega sized societies...sometimes I'm
just not feeling it...

 

Seriously I wonder how many people got me 'blocked' on here...

But I'm drawing readers from somewhere....randomn internet readers maybe?

Anyways...here's my day in a nut shell...I don't feel like repeating it here...

http://underworldrealities.webs.com...king-can-be-like-a-bad-marriage-ii-?page=last

Instead I'd rather talk about Poverty...or the fact that 1 out of 6 Americans are living in poverty...according to a report I heard on the news today...



In other words...if your a single person earning under $11,000 a year...the government considers you impoverished...

$11,000 comes to about $230.00 a week....or around $900.00 a month....
And just follow the above chart to add number to household to determine if your considered impoverished by the government...

I guess I should be grateful to have income considering this new data put out today...1 in 6 Americans living in poverty....

Wow...but I wonder if they count kids, under 18, who aren't even eligable to work?

And or do they include people who are working? or just those on assistance? or just put them all together...

I mean if your working full time, and still impoverished...somethings a matter...isn't that what minimum wage is for?

I don't know...I just find these stats interesting...
Funny thing is, I'm now making decent money, college graduate type money...but that's projected income...

My thing is I always quit jobs...that's what hurts me...I quit to many jobs...

I'm to much of a rebel...or independent...it's like one bad moment and I'm gone, out the door...that's what hurts me...

And that's one reason why I choose...willfully choose display self in the manner I do....cause it's me rebelling...

Going against the system...going against others 'sensibilities'....

Going by other peoples sensibilities have never done anything for me except put me in a tight little box...



A tight little box, where they still don't like me...(you)....

So if I'm going to be unliked regardless...I'd rather be unliked on my own terms...at least let me get something out of it...

And it's funny to hear how quick people are to say how equal and open minded they are...but when given the chance to proove it...don't....

Example: 'Oh I have friends that are gay, or black or jewish or white or cd's or aithiest ect ect'....
But I often wonder where these friends exist...

Most of you all should be glad your very singular in your thinking and rational...it makes life very simple...

 

Oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh...

I have a real movie producer following me on twitter!!

Oh my gosh....



Ok...like what am I suppose to do now???

Ok calm down...calm down....

 

Ok, maybe I'm confused...maybe it's a fan of a movie producer....

I don't know...that twitter stuff is confusing sometimes...

I've always wanted to be in the movies though...



Maybe if I just keep putting myself out there though, someone will notice...a friend of a friend of a friend type of stuff...

Anyways...knowing my luck...it's probably just a garbadge truck delivery man, pretending to be a movie producer or know one...oh well...