Trucking can be like a bad marriage...

It's 5:30am...I haven't gotten up this early on my own in a long time...cause I never use alarm clock...

I was pretty worn yesterday...to pick ups...10 chains...load is high...so had to climb all over it like tarzan or something...

I'm just glad I'm still limber enough to do that....

I mean it was like scaleing a building or something...
Days that you load is just like being in or at a gym...

And it's cold now...being in the warmer state or state...I forgot that the rest of the country is experiencing a cool fall...cold weather...

I'm completly summerized, no jacket, no hat...nothing...so I'll be making a trip to Wal-mart today...

And the trucks not winterized yet...in that the heat has been cut off...that really sucks...so I have no way to heat inside of cab except radiated heat from the sun...

I know there are valves your suppose to turn underhood to get heat flowing...I'll find out today which ones...hopefully that works or I'll be freezing the whole trip...or have to buy a ski outfit to be warm....

Anyhow...I'm headed to Mormon territory....I know I sound like forest gump or Higgins with my various stories and tales...
But I have history in Utah...I left behind a lot of fond memories there years ago...some of the best in my life...so it's always fun to journey back there...

Although I know nothings the same...people have grown older and moved on...

Anyhow...it's time to roll...
Waking up when trucks cold, and no heat, is like waking up in a tent...your basically sleeping 'outside'...whatever the temp is outside, is the temp in the truck...

 

Well I'm pushing towards the West...the NW...Past thru St Louis earlier...

Not a whole lot going on...not to many exciting photos either...I will push on about another 150 miles...then call it a night...

You can always tell when I'm busy working...cause my thoughts become very one dimensional...

I suppose most people like boreing uneventful days...but I wasn't bred for that...

I was built to socially joist...



So a boreing day to me is like a thorough bred horse locked up all day in it's pen...

Oh well...miles miles...more miles to do tonight...

 

Hi, about the only thing I have to say...which isn't much, and has little meaning outside of my own head is this...

I get tired of turning on the radio...and channel surfing...and coming upon Radio pastors who hit upon themes and or ideas I've talked about for years...or blogged about either here or on other forums...

And what bugs me about when they do it is they're always introduced like this...

'Dr Phil Stanely, who has earned twp Doctorait degrees at such and such, and a renowned author, speaks to us today about 'ect ect'....

I share the same thing that Dr Phil Stanely shares, and am dismissed as being nutty...where as Dr Phil is praised and laweded by his peers and audience...

These people (the collegiate types) make it seem as if God only speaks to them, or as if only they are able to interpit events...or read signs...

I find it very condescending...expecially since most of them have never really lived....all they've done is study...study what others say or go through...but they themselves, haven't been through much, outside of the University realm...

They speak on theory and concept, and not actual experience and pain...

Just like I'm sure there's things you've been through...things you've seen, felt...that if you shared...many on here or elsewhere might dismiss...

They would try to deminish the value of your hands on experience...
But let some nerdy collegiate Yale graduate say the same thing...and suddenly they're hailed as being 'Brilliant'...and 'Wonderfully insightful'....

I mean why do people do that?

I mean unless the messenger is packaged right, looks this way, leans this way politically ect ect...then they dismiss the messenger...even though they may say the excact same thing the person they hail, says...

And is why people, the general public, is so easily conned...
If I were a con man or woman...I could, would, project a totally different visual image...I would project an image i thought people would want me to look like and be...and have like hundreds of internet friends...

But instead i try to be artistically honest...and am shunned....

And that's why most are dishonest...cause they don't want to be shunned, so they sharade around as something their not..just to get the praise of man or their peers...

But being honest seems to get you locked in the basement by others...



But being dishonest...seems to get you the best seat at the dinner table...



Other than that...it's going to be a cold lonely night...

When I'm out here like this...it's kind of like being in a space capsule all alone drifting through space...



I mean you see a lot...but you really have no one to share it with, no one who values your experience or take on things...

Sometimes being out here, your value and status as a human is deminished...everyone tries to deminish you...

Very few people actually try to build you up...

Your one of the few that has ever tried to build me up...

But out here, no one does...that's why one has to be strong, to make it out here in this socially empty enviornment...

If someone makes you feel bad..you have no one to turn to for moral support...your just on your on...and is one.....ahh...let me stop...i'm just blabbing now....

Anyhow...I do feel better now sharing my thoughts with someone...

It's all anyone really wants...is to share, and know someone is listening...

You have a goodnight also...

 

I had a choice to make long time ago on here...

When i first joined, no one knew what I looked like, or better yet how I artistically expressed myself through photography...

Yet many gravitated towards me...cause without ever seeing any of my images...I make a lot of sense and could come off as being some 65 year old soul who has seen and done a lot...

Or some bright all American farm boy from Kansas...(I mean after all, I do come from the wheat farmland of Eastern WA)

I was engaging in conversations with people who I instinctivley knew thought I was someone else...visually that is...

But because I'm honest...that didn't sit right with me...

So I shared who I really was...(artistically anyways)...so that people could see...

Thinking they would respect that I was being honest with them...instead just the opposite occured...as i kind of knew would...

But I'm the type I'd rather have one or two friends, while being honest, than 1000 friends, by being dishonest...

And even the photos i post aren't the 'real' me...I mean yes and no...their more like digital paintings, or reflections...

Reflections of what I really would like to be, but am not, on a day to day real life purpose...

In real life I probably am that farm boy from Kansas in demenor, and respect and manners...but people get thrown off by the photos...and I want them to be...

(ok, i just had a dejavu...woh...) like I did all this before...sitting here typing this...everying....wow...

Cause to me it's like a screening process...the closer people come to me, the more pure I want them to be...pure of heart that is...

And it's amazing how hard that is to find...

And i don't know if I'm doing it for me, or a higher power or what...
But one has to be 'whole' first and foremost within themselves, in order to come here...

It's not a look...and it's not a gender...i just can't explain it...which means I'm not meant to yet....

Anyhow...I suddenly feel all tingley....

 

I mean think about it...I recently got a new computer...

If I just wanted any ol'e friends on here...I could of signed on as a new person...pretended to be someone else...and could have gotten any and everyone on here who swears up and down I'm the devil...to suddenly become my best pal, just by saying what I think they wanted me to...

I could get the most staunch conservative right winger on here, to look up to me if I wanted...and in their own minds, they'd swear up and down I looked like them, their same age, generation ect ect...

That's how 'gullable' people really are...and if I know that...you don't think the devil knows it too?...I mean the real one....

 

Ok, rise and shine everyone...it's time to kick the saddness away and rock-n-roll....



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We trek on....told you all I'd never leave ya...we trek on...through the good and bad...

Through failures and successes...we trek on...Love is constant....

 

I've got a new member on me other forum...I think their 'goth' or something...cool...



Also...I think I'm going to create a t-shirt that says 'New drivers sck'...and sell it...

I mean why not...(I don't mean them personally as induvisuals)

I'm refering to their spirit or lack of, and how they have totally destroyed the culture that use to be known as 'trucking'...

With their no cb radio ways, the cell phone attached to the head ways...and their gps....

They, this new influx of drivers, have totally destroyed almost all of the social aspect of driving that use to make it so fun...

That's what happens when a bunch of layed off workers from every other industry decides to drive a truck...they have all but killed the fun festive spirit that use to be out here when i first started...

They drive around in their trucks like they are cars...

All they are is four wheelers in a truck...exact same mindset as 4-wheelers...and so I will create a line of T-shirts that says 'All new drivers sck'...

Again, not as induvisual humans, but as 'drivers'...and how they have destroyed the unity we once enjoyed out here...the party...by bringing their induvisualistic introverted ways with them...

A very unsociable lot...

Many of them are older...have been married for years, and are very 'domesticated'....
That's what years of marriage will do to you...it will domesticate you...and your only purpose in life will be to generate a income for your master...who have robbed you of so much of the qualities that made you you, when you were still single...

They robbed you of that and replaced it with a shell of former self...and it was done deliberatly...

Anyhow...gots to roll...shirts coming soon...

 

I was cut off from the net all yesterday afternoon, last night, and part of this morning...wow...no service...but I did take a few interesting photos I'll post here in a bit...

One of a fender bender that took place in a Flying J parking lot...with occupants arguing...and the next of a man, a rather large man, wearing a skirt or Irish kelp...who happened to be walking behind me while I took photo of fender bender...

So me being me...I focused the camera on him and his skirt...very bizzare...just the timeing....

Anyways...the photos will be uploaded here in a few minutes...