Trucking can be like a bad marriage...

I appreciate you...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IW-PVlBU_fw

I appreciate all of you...your hard work and dedication...regardless of age or culture or ethnicity or whatever...

I know you work your butts off out there...and are all under appreciated...

I post here often...cause it keeps me from starting or posting on endless other threads...

I think many can relate to what I write about...a love hate relationship with trucking...

We love the pay checks...but don't always love or appreciate what we have to sacrifice to get that check...


I felt like quiting yesterday...I took a bad route yesterday...I felt like quiting...but I didn't...what you hear from me is real...day to day survival out here...

I have a cdl, I drive, and am employed...it don't get no more real than that...

We are all a fraternity, whether you like it or not...a fraternity...

Anyways..be safe out there...later...

 

Who says we can't get our groove on from time to time...

To the old timers...rock on...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z8e1SjBHSUM

 

Ok, I've calmed down...

It's hard for me to sleep out here...I always feel I must get to where I'm going before I fall asleep...it's very hard for me to just lay back in the truck, and fall asleep, while I still have energy...I always feel like I could be doing something else...than sleeping my life away in some parking lot...

But then during the day, while I'm running...I like to pull over and take naps, cause I can...sleep pattern on the road is all messed up...

Just like when at home, I don't just jump in the bed or couch, and fall asleep as soon as I walk into the door...well same out here...I don't just jump in bunk and go to bed as soon as I pull the air brakes...

I'm not a senior citizen living at a convelecant center...I'd like to believe I still have something to stay awake for...

I can't just drive, sleep, drive, sleep...no life, no life, no life...

I don't have a cb radio hooked up at the moment...when I did..I talked on it for hours at a time...maybe I need to hook it up again...

If you ever heard someone just talking and talking and talking and talking...on the CB radio...it was probablly me...but it would have been a month or so ago...

A tea party pet peeve of mine...

I don't like when the tea party gets a minority person to go on Fox News and say 'Gee wiz, racist? no...the tea party isn't racist'....

I can't stand when people do that...why?
Cause it's very disingenious...like any organization...the tea party is made up of induvisuals...and unless your God...you, we, haven't the ability to look into everyones heart and tell what they are...

Just because one is 'black'...doesn't mean they have the ability to look into a million tea partiers hearts and determine whether or not some, few or many are or are not motivated by racial anomosity...

A more accurate statement would be 'The tea parties intent isn't to be racist'

It annoys me when any group, left or right, uses a token person like that...as if what they say 'settles it'...Well ok, because you said it, it's so...nah...

In reality I think there are some induvisual racist tea party members...who feel they've found a voice in that movement...just like there are racist Democrat induvisuals...

I notice all politians and talk show host, really depend on their audiences being dumb and nieve, in order to wing over some of the things they do and or say...

Anyways...going to finish watching part of 'Invasion of the body snatchers'...then I'll lay down for a bit and hit the road around 2-3 am...later...

 

Right now, here where I'm at, is a prime example of why 'man doesn't always know best'...

I'm parked in a very spooky place, next to some dark abandoned structures...it's cold out, so I have the truck idling...I'm all alone here...

What spooks me out is because I have engine idling...the parking lights are on...and therefore alerts people, maybe people with not so good intentions, that 'I'm here'...or that 'someones in that truck'...

I think that is so dangerious when manufactuers do that...the driver should have the option as to whether they want the lights on or not...manufactuers have no idea what situations a driver may find themselves in...

With lights off, no one hardly notices you, with lights on...your advertising yourself to 'creeps'...expecially if your parked all alone in some Friday the 13th location next to abandoned structures...

As a driver, out here alone, stealth is an advantage...sometimes your only advantage...when parked alone in some unfirmiluar place...

But no...'man knows best'...
'We will hard wire your parking lights to stay on when engine running and parked for safety'...We know what's best...

No you don't know what's best...and it's very unsafe to do that...now if there is some creepy 'The hills have eyes' type cannibal family out here...they know exactly where I'm at...thanks a lot manufactuer...

 

I'm definatly at a alpha male southern location...the guys here speak with such a deep southern accent...I can barely understand him...

My accent, is so different than theirs, it's like I'm from a different country...

I mean I'm talken heavy southern, Georgian alpha male drawl...wow...




I'm talken straight up meat and potatoes type of fellas...I can't seem to get away from rugged backwood logging mill type places...why did they send me here?

The bathroom needs sweeping...cobwebbs everywhere...dust scattered about...

But these alpha males don't seem to mind...instead they thrive in it, this enviornment..

(I feel like I'm a reporter for the Discover channel doing a report)

Anyhow, all is good so far...

I'll check in a bit later...

 

I owned a Stryker, and a Magnum...both malfunctioned...over $700.00 in radios...so I gave up on the high end stuff...and purchased a low end Galaxy...it too blew up...

So I said..the heck with it for a while...

But I may get back into it soon...after all, I am a legend around here...and I know these guys miss hearing from me...

 

I hope they don't send me back there for at least a month...enough time for me to get out of their memories...cause while there today...I took photos of them...



And they were all looking at me like i was weird...
Yes, I took photos...and may post here real soon...
I'm like a reporter on assignment...and needed those photos to proove a point on another forum...but now the logger guys there think I'm 'wierd'...

When you cross me, with alpha male loggers, contriversy always happens...you don't know half the stories...

I'm like a urban legend to these guys...

Anyways...I'm at home now...all went well...

Have a meeting I must attend tomorrow...I dislike when they scheduale meetings on your time off...

 

Not really doing much tonight...my personal vehicle has a flat tire...

So I can't really go anywhere...so i decided to clean out my camera by downloading some photos and clearing up some space...I took all these myself...

The following is of a older yellow Freightliner cab over...in the photo, it has that 1980's or 90's look to it...that night time festival look that truck stops use to have...that 'anything could happen tonight' look, but in a good way...I'm not talking in todays paranoid way...

That era of trucking is forever over...replaced by todays over regulated, no fun twin...oh well, it's still fun to reflect...

Oh, and I have those mill photos of the place I was at on Friday...I'll share those later...

 

Hi, well as is customary for me, on Sundays I always like to chime in on how I'm feeling about going back to work...

Trucking has weird effects on you when your off...

1. When you first come off the road, you kinda really 'hyped up'...your leaving a very fast paced inpersonal world, and slowing down very fast...

Kinda like a drag car coming to a stop...



Your coming off of one heck of a ride...and as such...takes a while, for the effect of the ride to wear off...

2. While the effect is wearing off, you really don't know what to do with yourself, you at times feel out of sinc, emotionally and physically with your enviornment...and may experience emotional highs and lows during this period as you try to find 'balance'...

3. By Sunday, when the effects have finally wore out...and you start thinking and planning again like a normal person going to a normal job...you have to start thinking about climbing back into that drag car of a life...and taking off again...and this is the time that often brings emotional conflict...

Your nice and relaxed, (finally)...and the last thing you feel like doing is uprooting yourself...

(although for some...this can be a time of joy, particulurly if home life is full of turmoil...getting up and leaving can be like a escape, a reprieve)

4. Then after getting all your stuff together again...and finally tearing yourself away from 'normality'...you hop back in the truck, get caught up on your logs, and your off again...to the races..



Well today, believe it or not, I kinda do want to leave up out of here...

I didn't really have a good time this weekend...I felt depressed actually, about a few things...I'm in that spot where your not 'broke' but yet you don't have enough money to do what you really want to do or buy what you really want to get...so your just kinda stuck in limbo...

Where just buying $40.00 in groceries makes you shreak..



Your like 'darn, I wasted $40.00 bucks on this??

Then by the time you buy other non essential items...you've spent $120.00 in two days, on absolutly nothing...and your like..

'Gee, at this rate, I'll never be able to lift myself up and out of here'...

Then you start feeling hopeless like you can never earn enough to get anywhere in life...

So at times like this, sometimes climbing back into the truck can be a relief...it can get your mind off of stuff...and back onto griping and complaining about 4-wheelers...

Heck, I may even hook my cb radio back up later today...I've given these guys enough time to recover without me...and these backwood mountain men need to start hearing me again...

Anyways...time to start packen...not that I go very far...but it's still a trip...and I will spend the night up there...

Anyways...I'll check in again later today...