Trucking can be like a bad marriage...

ahhh...come here you...a hug, for old times sake, to all those who continued to support me...



Nothing but peace, love, and joy....

As far as my behavior...I think it had more to do with a none related rule violation, and I'll leave it at that...

Cause as far as behavior goes, I'm as nice and kind as a butterfly, to those who know me, and don't hold a bias...

I'm honest as heck also...

I've learned this in life...people either like you or they don't...when they like you...you can do no wrong...

When they don't like you...everything you do or say is wrong...

Your not extended that 'grace'...

Kinda like a mobsters mother, who loves her son no matter what..even though he does 'bad' things...
But let some innocent guy walk past her without tipping his hat, and he becomes the focus of her wrath...

But anyhow...all that aside...I do hope everyone is doing well...

And I will try to catch you up on things over the next couple of posts...
I realize I tread on light ground here...

But I do want you all to know...I did not forget about you...circumstance above my control just did not allow me to reach out and say 'hello'...

I do apologize...

Oh how we have so much to get caught up on...if given the chance...

I haven't changed any...still perceptive and very keen...

regardless of my path...I only want those of you on here to prosper...

back soon...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QVS3WNt7yRU

 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aWyeVfuolT4

Thank you guy...thank you...I'm humbled...

One thing I've realized since being gone...is how precious life is...how short it really is...and how when it's gone, it's gone...

And how each person 'matters'...really matters...

Each and every personality matters...at least to me...

I take no one for granted anymore...never really did...but more so now...

With 5 billion or so souls on this planet...if you can get 1 or 2 or even 3 to notice you...to me that's special...

And it's something that can never be replaced...

I value you...and my general...and look forward to his soon return...

I'm not perfect...far from it...I'm flawed...both in Gods eyes and mans...

But I do know how to love and appreciate others...

As the song states above...my wings have been broken many times...but I continue to soar...or try to...

And that's all I ask of you...with or without me...soar....

If you do that...you will make me happy....soar....

Broken wings and all...soar...for me...and your family...and those who love you...

And when you soar...the rest of us will soar with you...

Thank you my friend...and be good....

 

Oh my gosh, where do I begin??

Where could I possibly begin??

And how can I describe my current state of mind and or being??




Worn, emotionally beat up, but still walking...

I have photos of myself, I'd rather post, to decriptively describe
my state...but I can no longer do that...not on here anyways...

But yes...that is my state...emotionally worn, a bit ragged, but still walking...

I'm like the wilder beast you see on those National Geographic shows, where all the lions are trying to tear it to shreds...but the stubborn creature just won't fall...it continues to stand inspite of...



Many of us are sorounded by lions in our daily lives and endevours...

They care nothing for you at all, you are their prey...

But you continue to stand anyways...for sitting down is not an option...
it's not in your soul or make up to do so...

So you stand, until you can't no more...until either God steps in and helps...
Or until you die...one or the other...

But actually guy, things aren't so bad...I'm just stubborn...

But so is fate...fate is stubborn also...

But for now...I'm back...at least for a while...
And I missed you also...relationships formed on here are real...
The energy passed back and forth is real...and when that's cut off
it is felt....

I am nothing, and am at the mercy of the world and forces around me...
Regardless of my intentions or heart...

There's so many things I have no control over in this world.

I am truly humbled, but continue to stand, until I get what I want..despite
the lions around me...

And we all have our own lions around us, not just me.
You, and everyone else does also...

But when united, those lions don't seem so tough, when isolated, those lions seem really mean and viscious...


My gosh, I wanted my first post back to you to be more celebratory...
And here I am going down some proverd, philisophical diatribe...

But what else do you expect from me??

I've never been normal...so why should I start now...

Ok, but the next post will be about something totally different...I think...

Nice being back with ya guy...

 

How do I feel about being back??

A bit scared and hesitant...and a bit distrustful...I mean who do you trust anymore??

All the good effective leaders of the past...one thing they all did...
They all forged ahead based on their own 'good' intentions,
And not how others might or could react to them.

And that's what gives you strength...

Ok, there I go again proverbing...why can't I just be normal like everyone else?

I don't even know where to begin...I mean I'm still apart of the trucking fraternity...but I don't know where to begin...

Should I start with dreams? or reality?

I mean actual dreams I've had...

I haven't been in a truck since I last posted on here...I think...

But that may end soon, as I may have found a temp full time local type of gig...

I've also added a few more endorcements onto my license to give me more options down the road...

In this day and age, your cdl is like a degree, don't ever take it for granted...expecially if you already have it...and guard your record like gold...
Don't speed, don't take unessicary chances...guard your record, cause these days, it will be used against you...

Insurance companies rule the world now...and companies won't hire you
if your record is bad...

It's almost like that mark of the beast stuff is coming real now...
Everythings becoming real impersonal, and ran by computers that are programmed to eliminate waste and ineffeciancy...

Sadly, hustling will become a way of life for more and more, as the job pool shrinks...

And as free trade lowers American wages...and further dilutes the driving pool with South American drivers...

http://www.wnd.com/?pageId=252861

It's getting harder and harder for qualified, educated people to get jobs, how much harder for those with blotches in their past, or who lack a trade, skill or degree??

And as far as trucking or truckers...our own regulators are trying to make it more difficult for American truckers to do their jobs, while giving a free pass to foreign truckers who will not be under the same stringent rules...

Our own government is handicapping American truckers ability to do their job, while at the same time, allowing competing foreign trucking companies to drive on our roads unabated and without restrictions...wow...

But instead of American truckers uniting...we're more concerned over whether someone wears sandals...and might be 'gay'...

But like I said earlier...I have no control over this stuff...
Like most...I can only see what's coming...and ask 'why?'

The regulators over this country seem 'evil' to me right now...

Either that or really dumb, if they can't see how their rules are hurting us...
And how they have allowed all these tech companies to implament their technology into government.

It's funny how movies of the past, are coming true today...

For those of you old enough to remember, and or who are fans of old time classic sci-fi/horror...do you remember this one here??



Computer logic is not the same as mans reasoning...
And in the end, computer logic will be the end of us...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O1HhBWPvlJo

 

It's a basic truth that we always try to deny...but I believe it to be true...amongst everyone...

Except for maybe hippies who are high on pot...

They seem to love everyone and everything, while stoned...

But when they come back down from their 'high'...they too seem to be
governed by their natural biological interests...

ghostchild....