Trucking can be like a bad marriage...

That's a scary thought...

 

Some of you probably wonder why I even bother to still post here...like why am I still here, when most fade out after 2 or 3 posts...there's hundreds of dead threads...so the odds of me keeping this one going were astronaumical...
But I did, and have...I set out with a concept, and have kept that concept alive...



The Marriage thread, at times, does have a lonely, isolated, locked up feel to it...as if alone in a big building, locked in a room, and segregated from others...



Kept behind a bolted door, in a lonely room and not allowed to show myself to others...the ugly terrible step child who should never have been...

And that's what I am to trucking...

When others walk past the room and hear noise, the hosts simply say 'Oh never mind that, it's just the wind'....

But I've grown familuar with this room, this space...it has indeed become somewhat of a home...a place to chill and relax...hasn't always been that way there...and there were times in the past when my absence could be measured in months...3-7 months...or maybe longer..

But yes, it seems I am the 'ugly' stepchild, the dirty little secret...I'm in the lonely room most step quietly by, in hopes of not garnering my attention...

So I sit, alone, in the room, chained up and waiting....

Until one day...I decide to break out...



To see what else is out there...to see what else is possible...
Before the very room I dwell in becomes my own tomb...

It's still my room though...I just want to see what else is out there...


ghostchildd...

 

I do hope everyone is doing fine...
I did as I said I would above...still working on it though, not much content yet...mainly going to use it as a hub...more details on that later...

But as with tradition here, my own, I like to greet people on the weekends whenever possible...so...Good Morning and have a wonderful day...

 

Well I finally did it...kind of started my own web site...or sub domain web site...
I've been working on it all day...

http://underworldrealities.webs.com/aboutme.htm

Maybe it will go no where...but at least I tried...




The body and flesh may be weak, but at least the spirit is still alive within...

Other than that, not much going on...it's raining out...not quite dark yet...

I have some liver I need to fry up before it goes bad...

back soon...

 

I just feel it's time to move on, or expand...

Most of my readers on here come from randomn internet surfers...not from actual members...

Many have been lured to this site, and signed up, just do to reading my posts...

But the regular members on here, most, not all, just hold their nose up to me, or anyone else who isn't 'traditional rural country'...

That's cool, but lady gaga, didn't get where she was by trying to appeal to that crowd only...



Infact, had Lady gaga ever been on this site, she would have gotten about the same treatment as myself...and would of never realized her potential had she based that potential on others response to her...

And the same with many celebs, or people we now read about in history...

Even though I'm from blue collar hey bail area, I'm just not a hey bail type of soul...



I mean I am, but I'm also so much more, or was...

I can't be confined to any one outlook or attitude or view point...
To do so would be to be a prisoner to human programing...

Life is short...and I recently was in and out of senior care facilities, where all I saw was people dying, sick, or about to die, on a daily basis...

Is that the conclusion of everything?
It was sad, hopeful, and revealing...

It showed me that your only young once, given the gift of youth, sex appeal, be it male or female, so why hide it?

So many of those people I saw, befriended, were so lonely, but all they could do was lay there...or sit propped up in a wheel chair, longing for the day they could laugh and have reason to dance about...

And the fears, and little quirks that so many on here wine and complain about, seemed so irrelavant in that enviornment...

In the end, so many of those patients, people, just wanted attention and love, regardless of whom it came from...male or female...
They simply wanted to be noticed, and appreciated...as many were abandoned by family and world...

So with that in mind...I figure I kind of owe it to them to live...I don't mean live in a bad sinful way, but to live...to celebrate the body that was given...in an encouraging way...

For soon, I too will end up in a place like that (if I'm lucky)...



And what gets me about many on here is that they seemingly want to bury you before your dead...

What type of mindset is that??

Anyways..

It's all about what time and season it is...

 

Hi, I see where your a member on there...hmm...

Maybe your right, it's so new, that bugs are being worked out...i'll check it out...

(Oops, never mind, I just saw your above post...)

 

I feel like 'Olive Oil' today...the cartoon version...



Why?
Cause I suddenly developed a taste for Olives...these kind...


Pampa black olives...yum...they taste really good to me right now...

I've heard when you develop a craving for a food item, it's because your lacking the nutrition that food item has...

Ok, let's see what kind of nutritional value olives have...

http://www.brighthub.com/health/diet-nutrition/articles/77916.aspx

Well anyways, I haven't the time to share the link...but I did read vitamin E, something about free radicals, and protecting cell walls...

Anyways...I'm swallowing olives, and trying to write at the same time..

I sorta have another site now...but certain things don't work on it yet...can you say 'frustrated'...so I gotta wait till tomorrow to get some support...or later this evening...

http://underworldrealities.webs.com/aboutme.htm

But here's a link for those who want to see the 'freak' I am...

You can confirm all your worst fears and nightmares...whooooe...

I can't stand cowards or wimps period...insecure cowards and wimps are useless to me...fragile and frail as a vase on the inside...

Anyways...

Just thought I'd check in real quick...boo!

I'm the ghostchildd...