Trucking can be like a bad marriage...

I could never embrace deception, 'to decieve'...to 'trick'....to purposely try to mislead for A, B, or C....

There's emotional deception, spiritual deception, and financial deception...sometimes they all string together...sometimes they opperate independently of one another...

Either way it's wrong...just ask any victim of it...

If someone has the 'truth'...just say it, and let others decide...that way everything remains clean and in the light...

 

I'd rather walk past a table of edible goods, and clearly see the labels, and what they are, so that I can decide if I really want it or not...

Than to have some of those food items deliberatly mislabeled, to take home consume and get sick...

Love is always open and in the light, and allows others to make up their own mind based on their own internal value systems....right or wrong, love allows people the freedom to choose without useing trickery...

 

I'm always here cause I always try to keep myself 'clean'...'honest'...or as forthcoming as possible on many issues...

I have no motive other than to share...like a star has no motive when it shines...



What allows me to do this day after day after day is cause I try to stay clean...
I keep my self and conscious light by simply writing about stuff...instead of getting lost in my own speculation...

I write what's on my mind so I can evalutate, and allow others to...
And it prevents me from taking myself or life to seriously...

How many have come and gone since I started this thread?
What did they really want?

I've already accepted the fact that in the end, I represent the sum total of 'zero'...
In the end I'm noting but dust...and or whatever God may have planned for me...

I'm vunerable, I'm weak and I'm flesh...

If Dracula came up to me, and wanted to be my friend, I would accept, as long as he were honest about his intentions and nature...

Dracula can be dracula in his full glory, as long as he acknowledges it..

But if Dracula came to me dressed as a plumber to work on my pipes...then Id be weary.

Honesty just makes things right, cause we can all see each other for who we really are, and then decide where to go from there...honesty keeps things right.

That's one reason I use to post photos on here...I wanted people to see the artistic side of myself...cause when i write, people often form images in their minds of the author that doesn't nessicarily reflect my person...and I felt I was 'decieving' them...not purposely...

So I started posting photos...so people could see...I was doing that to be honest...
I could have pretended a lot of things...made folks think I was this or that...but I choose to be honest instead...

Also I didn't enjoy people thinking I looked one way, having great dialogue with me, and then upon seeing my image, never talking to me ever again...talk about shallow...but it happens a lot with online situations...

I even remind people that in real life, I don't look as 'sissy' or 'soft' as I appear in my photos...the photos are just an artistic outlet for my other side...the same way actors escape into various roles...but in this case they're visual roles...some that i wish I could stay in forever...but unfortunatly cannot...

Anyways...long winded post...time to send...

 

I also have the ability to love and forgive...that is very important in order to do what I do...

Holding long drawn out grudges only wears out thy heart and changes thy nature...

We are all flawed...I make mistakes, moral mistakes, poor judgement mistakes...and I fully expect others too...

It's just the nature of man...if God can have mercy and love with me, and others, surely it's not that hard for me to do the same...(actually it's very hard for some, near impossible for others)

Love, and move on...it's the only way to stay happy in this world...

 

Where have you been you???
Your suppose to look out for me on here...
You know my wild and crazy persona sometimes leads me off on adventures...

Ok, now that I got that out of the way...glad you finally chimmed in....

My mind is elsewhere right now...but I can bring it back to trucking...

And right now I'm still pleased...and got another phat one today...

But the admin/reg part of trucking is sucking the life out of the industry...

And by the way...did anyone else get that class action lawsuit notice in the mail??
Pertaining to companies that were using illegal 3rd parties to run background checks??

If you applied for a company that used one of these companies, your do money...companies like 'DAC'...but it wasn't dac...it was other credit reporting companies and background check companies...they've been sued, and lost, and now those of us who were hurt by them are owed money...but not that much...cause by the time you divide the money 200,000 ways...only the lawyers make out good...

If anyone wants more info let me know...

 

Interesting...

But I'm not speaking of physical theatrics...make-up...colorful costumes...

The kind of deception I speak of has implications that go far deeper than colorful or digital make-up....

Like the band Kiss...it's accepted that they're just a colorful animated band...or were...



A 'brand' of sorts...entertainers...it was their 'schtick'...or however it's spelled...
That's not what I'm talking about...

As far as invading my space...I love and enjoy people...as long as they're upfront and real with me...(not refering to looks, rather intentions)

If someone really hates me...I prefer they say so...if someone likes me, i prefer they say so, if someone doesn't quite know what to make of me, I prefer they say so...it's not that complicated or deep...it's just honesty...

And the how much of inner self we allow others to see...

To me that's more 'privacy' or 'discretion'...but not deception...

that would be like saying anyone who didn't walk around naked, was decieving others of what their bodies look like...

Discression and or privacy, is not the same as purposely decieving...at least not to me....

Someone not showing me their inner self, is not the same as them selling me a corvette, when I really wanted a porsche...

Anyways...all that aside...I'm sorry you were made to feel like a monster...

I can relate...

And is why I so refuse to become one....